Letting Go

It's time to let go, but let go of what you say?

• looking to others for the right answers
• worry about what others will think or say
• not following my bliss for fear of hurting someone
• low self-esteem
• the feeling of being fat and uable to lose it
• the fear of losing it mentally
• fear of not being able to work and make a good wage
• fear of being homeless and hungry
• fear of admitting the truth about myself
• THE FEAR OF LOSING ANYTHING OR ANYONE
• fear of letting someone really love me
• fear of loving someone deeply and intimately (i might get hurt)
• melancholy disposition
• feelings of not fitting in anywhere

These are the things I want to let go of and I say that I will try, but the time for trying is coming to an end. The time to make it happen has to begin today!!!!!!

GODDESS HELP ME

Lost Morale

Lost Morale

Oh, the many ways to lose it!

• get fired
• lose a best friend
• lose yourself
• live on unemployment
• no prospects of viable employment
• no money for Christmas
• what is the meaning of Christmas anyway
• job interviews with know-it-alls who think they know what you know when in fact they don't know you at all or what you know and further more they don't care
• the ya-ya's who think they are better than you
• letters from those who want to steal your self-esteem just because they like to say NO
• gaining weight and not giving a shit about how you look anymore because hey, you've lost your morale and the self-esteem is fading fast
• wanting to sleep all day and just"MAKE THE WORLD GO AWAY"
• BILL THAT HAVE TO BE PAID WITH INVISIBLE MONEY BECAUSE YOU HAVE NONE

Once upon a time my morale was here and healthy

I was strong and stealthy

now I am sad and unwealthy.

Job interviews

Job interviews are the absolute worst. What to wear, how to sit, what expression on my face, what shoes for god's sake! and then the inevitable questions, what are your strengths and weaknesses, where do you see yourself in 5 years,(right here I hope you idiot), how do you problem solve, how do you handle difficult people (I don't, they don't exist to me) what do you feel you bring to this company? Oh, Goddess, put the words in my mouth that I need.

Crisis Moving

Crisis moving sucks. I don't know where I'm going, where I'm going to land, but I'm in a crisis and I have to move. In December, I'll be a vagabond. Because of the crisis selling, I have learned to let go of the past. I am learning I don't need stuff. My stuff no longer gives me the security I yearn for. But then neither does moving, so...

I WANT MY LIFE BACK!